I'm so going to hell
This weekend I did something just awful & now I have to break someone's heart. Someone close to me. I have to be honest about this. Why do I get self-destructive? Why am I so impulsive? Why can't I ever be happy? I want to crawl under a rock. I don't know how to feel about this. I knew it was coming/going to happen ... I really don't want to break his heart. He will have no idea how much this has broken mine. I hate myself right now. I am so not worth his love or anyone elses. Why am I aloud to even be here? Why?
posted by Openfields @ 10:51 PM
