Blah, Fucking Blah
Fucking Love Sucks (& yes I'm drunk)How dare I seek happiness
When I know it is not there?
In the midst of my double vision stare.
He shares so much kissing with me
Then goes upstairs to forget I was there.
I’m left with the desire for him that was present
From the beginning up until now
With love & resentment
That he has no idea of what lies inside …
I am honest yet clouded about how I feel
I can’t be so upfront because I fear
He will find someone else
Even though he’s not looking
How foolish this must seem ….
I make so many excuses,
Try so many different things
Yet In my heart he remains.
And a fool I am.
For so many reasons
Of which I can not & will not claim.
I still hold it in for fear so obvious but which I won’t explain.
Am I fool?
Yes, I admit.
But can I put an end to this?
I don’t think I can ..
JED
February 21, 1975
posted by Openfields @ 1:13 AM
