No need for a search crew Jane - I'm here :-)
Just lost track of time ...This not working thing has thrown me for a loop .. half the time I don't know what day it is ..
Dan, your comment: "Take good care of yourself. That's always lesson #1. Because it's likely no one else is going to do it for you. :)" ... excellent advice ... oddly .. advice I always give to others & just gave last weekend to a close friend .. but often find hard to take myself ...
Nigel stopped over last night .. we went out for a drink & then came back to my apt to watch a movie & drink some champagne he found in his parents house (that's sold & is almost completely cleaned out). Well, his back hurt from getting swept up in the mood at the last show he played & I gave him a massage & one thing led to another & ... well, you know the rest. Man, it was awesome. He & I talk about sex alot & how it was between us b4 we decided to just be friends & he took all I said into consideration - wow! Not that it was ever bad with him - he was always one of the best I'd ever had..now...
Afterwards I started laughing ... I told him how I'm always telling people that guys & girls CAN be just friends & telling them about our relationship & that it can too work ... Well, so much for that I guess. But, we will always be friends .. Maybe when two people are such close friends & they used to be in a relationship it's just bound to happen. We do love each other so ... although we're not in love.
So ...he's going to be staying with me after Thursday for a while until we get a 2 bedroom together that we can both afford. It's hard paying for your own place & It's even harder when you become unemployed & can't even pay for gas in your car (which is falling apart)..
I stopped taking the Lithium .. it was making my hair fall out in clumps & I am not going bald for a medication. Not to mention the shakiness that had started to go away but came back ... It took a lot of thinking b4 I actually made the decision & I was taking it every so often to keep some in my system but, I finally just stopped. I found myself rapid cycling again once when I was on it anyway so I guess it's not the happy wonderdrug it's all cracked up to be - at least not for me. I'm like a test-rat that's immune to everything - I swear.
I'm doing ok though - right now & I'll call my doctor this week I guess - but - jeeze - what now? Are there any other drugs left out there? And, besides - I'm unemployed with no insurance - can't very well afford any anyhow. Maybe I should just suck it up & take the lithium ... I don't know.
Oh & my cat Mr.Pooks ended up getting a hematoma in his ear - it bloated up like a balloon - my poor baby. I brought him the vet & he had to stay overnight to have it lanced. Now he gets to deal with stitches for 3 weeks. He's doing ok but man does he look pathetic. I get to stuff a pill down his throat once a day too & he just LOVES that - yea ... not so much ... he's gotten good at spitting them back out. He used to be easy to give pills to but these suckers are the size of an advil.
posted by Openfields @ 10:40 AM
