Ugh ....
I know nobody's reading this ... I'm just writing it for myself at this point. I've been so mia for so long ... I apologize to those that might stop by.I was behind in my bills ... so behind I couldn't even afford gas to go anywhere for so long .. I was borrowing from my friends. Anywhoo .. I got a job .. quit a job .. sold my house .. made a good clip from it .. bought a new SUV .. got a new job as a Personal Trainer.
The new job is going great. I'm meeting some awesome people. I can't help but feel like a hypocrite though because I personally am rarely working out & not eating like I should. I can't help it .. my eating habits are all over the place .. I'm down to 114#'s & a size 3/4 ... I try to eat normally ... like I used to when I worked out regularly but, I just don't get hungry! Who wants to eat when they're not hungry? My "friend" Nigel doesn't comprehend this ... Today I had one of those new french toast thingamabobbers at Dunkin Donuts & a PB & J sandwich .. now I'm having some wine ...
I was fighting a UTI because I wasn't drinking enough fluids (save for alcohol) on top of not eating right ... I made every attempt possible to drink more water & managed to kick it .. thank God.
I'm on the right track ... it's a battle but, I'm getting there.
Tomorrow, I'm going to the gym to spy on & or participate in the beginners karate at the gym I now work at. The gym is focused & began mainly around the martial arts program there & I'm psyched! Afterwards I plan to work out (it's free damnit - why not?). Later on I will be working (5-7) as a PT & will meet with the owner after my "shift" to discuss how things are going.
Nigel is living with me ... I fucked up pretty bad however ... drinking & driving & be destructive (my fellow BP's would understand this) so our relationship was strained for a while & any hope of it evolving into something more are pretty much gone .. my own fault though .. I take full responsibility ... the whole thing however has kicked my ass into getting my life in order. Something bad CAN be turned into something good ...
The saying "Life is what you make of it" ---> Yea ... it aint bullshit.
posted by Openfields @ 8:42 PM
